Friends for the past few weeks have been asking me how I’m doing. And my usual response has been that I’m keeping everything on as even a keel as possible because with as much as I need to do with as little time as I have to do it, I can’t afford to fall apart and curl up with a gallon of ice cream. So I’ve tried to emphasize the positive and enjoy the moments with my friends and just keep moving on. Unfortunately I am a great deal more emotional than all of this and as things are coming together I can feel the emotions well up at the edges of my consciousness. I’m not quite there to be able to let it go. I know it’s going to hit me like a ton of bricks some time over the next few month. Anyway, I don’t want my “very well adjusted” facade to make you think that I don’t care or that I can throw off the last thirteen years of my living here in Long Beach like it’s nothing. I very much want my friends and family to know how much I am going to miss you and how much a part of my life you will always be. No matter where I am, I carry you with me. jbb

Music: When You Go from the album “Thing a Week Three” by Jonathan Coulton